Recently I learned that the person who molested me at the age of 14 died.  I thought when that happened I would feel some kind of emotion.  I would feel some kind of justice, but I didn’t really feel anything, nothing, nada.  I know this is going to sound bad but I was truly disappointed that I didn’t feel something, some kind of emotion.  I realized that the hate I felt and guilt I felt had diminished.  For years I wished him dead and even recently hoped his death would be painful.  My only thought now is the world is free from the evil and hopefully the damage that he caused to several families can be healed.  You can feel evil when you are in its presence and I tried several times to ignore that feeling when I was forced to be at the same place that he was in/at, family functions. After I was married it was easier but that evil feeling was still there, just not as strong.  I have felt that same evil a couple of other times.  Once when my dad died and once when my daughter was small and a man came to the door of the house we were renting, to invite us to his church.   I don’t know if I can explain it or describe the feeling.  It’s just a feeling that crawls over your body and makes the hair stand up on the back of your neck.  It’s been a long year since COVID put me at home, which was March of 2020.  I started my podcast in August of 2020. It is/was a personal journal. This has been m therapy for the last 9 months.  There were days that if I had not had the podcast as an outlet I would have lost my mind.  I’ve shared a lot over the last 9 months and I plan to keep podcasting.  I just feel like I want to try a different kind of podcast.  I haven’t fully decided yet what I will do, but as soon as it is ready I will be sharing with everyone and until then I will still be recording and sharing on this one.  I’ve enjoyed doing this and it is a lot of fun.  I like being able to share.  Thanks to everyone that listens, downloads and shares.  Have a blessed day!   Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

Against The Rocks

True Crime - Follow up Story

Growing up, I never thought of myself as being overweight until someone called me “Fatty”.  Once that happened, my whole perspective changed.  I was very self-conscious about how I looked and what I wore.  As a teenager, I wore shirts that hung loose and jeans.  Nothing I owned fit tight, was ever tucked in or belted.  As I started high school, my clothes became darker and the funny thing is I probably weighed 150 pounds which is where I’m trying to get now.  My clothes were always solid no prints and never any stripes.  My clothes were dark blue or black.  Sometimes I would have a white sweater or a white peasant shirt, but that was very seldom.As I started to lose weight and to drop sizes in clothes, I started venturing to other colors. Colors like Army green, light brown, dark red and a couple of white shirts.  The other day at Wally World I was looking for some extra summer shirts.  Before the weight loss started I bought shirts that were 3x and 4x and was happy when I got down to a 2x, but not I’m in larges and mediums and they look so tiny.  I’m the smallest I have been since 1982.  I still see myself as a 300lb person.  Being overweight is not just physical.  It is emotional and mental.  Some people that are overweight walk like an obese person.  They walk heavy or sitting down heavy if that makes any sense.  But I was never like that and my arms were never big.  Some people that are overweight are not always overweight all over.  I don’t know that even if I weighed 125 if I would see myself any different.  The last time I weighed 125 I was a sophomore in high school and my hip bones were they only thing that held my jeans up.  I know this won’t make any sense to a person who has never experienced being overweight.  There are some people that are overweight and it doesn’t bother them.  They wear tight clothes and two piece bathing suits and never even blink an eye.  I was never able to do that and I still don’t wear a bikini.  I wear a two piece but it has a long top. To me that means they are comfortable with their bodies and I am not and not sure I will ever be.  I still do not look in a mirror at myself and I don’t walk around naked even in front of my husband.  I know that some of this sounds silly, but for me, it is a matter of not wanting to be noticed.  A lot of people gain weight to keep attention away from them.  Sometimes that works and sometimes it doesn’t.  I think I continue to gain weight because of being molested.  That way I didn’t draw attention to myself.  This is something I continually fight. Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

The color of weight

 I take any task assigned to me very seriously.  Working in relocation whether it is pets or people, there are a lot of moving parts.  No matter what you do for a living there are always things that can happen, but in people relocation, missing something or making an error on paperwork, doesn’t cost a life.  In pet relocation, if it is not correct an animal’s life is at stake.  I am very diligent about doing things in order, correctly and making sure I check everything before I complete paperwork.  I didn’t have a lot of a training curve when I started this job either.  I felt like after being shown once maybe twice I was supposed to have it down. So I really try to make sure I’ve followed the guidelines and do a good job, so when an error is pointed out, I do get upset.  Some days it just doesn’t seem to matter how hard I try, things are not correct.  There is a new person learning to do the same position as I am doing.  He has been here about three weeks.  It really aggravates me when you ask someone a question and it should be a yes or no answer and you get a dissertation.  I also don’t like it when there are different rules for different people.  I’ve seen that many times over the years in corporate America.    It sucks when you have those people that are treated differently and you are doing the same position and have the same job title.  I hate having to go back and clean up files after someone else has screwed them up.  I’ve been doing that in relocation for most of my life.  You clean up after someone and then they get all the recognition and praise.  I really just want to scream sometimes.  Sometimes I just wonder if it is worth it!  But then reality hits.  I have to have a job.  Money is not everything but without it you can’t have a roof over your head, food on your table or clothes on your back.  Someone once said it is just a job.  That is true, but when my daughter was about 3, the manager at the company I worked for told me that I could not let my personal life cause my work life issues.  I guess I took that to heart.  I try very hard to keep them separated. I worked my way up in the relocation industry from secretary or wait that an administrative assistant now to a senior consultant making good money.  I’m very detailed oriented and I am very good at remembering what someone tells me to do.  I make notes, keep examples and follow guidelines when I’m learning something new.  I started that after that manager stated that I had to keep work and life separate.  I’m very good at time management.  I believe you lay out your day and you work to accomplish each and every task until it is finished before you quit for the day.  If that means not taking a lunch or working a little late, than that is what I do or was doing.  Just like with every job, an email or a call can change your schedule in a heartbeat.  I guess I’m just too old school.  I believe you do a job, you do it right and you don’t make excuses.  If you screw up, then you take the responsibility.  However, I also believe if you were following the directions of someone else and did exactly what you were told to do and there is an error, then that error belongs to everyone.  Then again, I’ve always been very responsible.  I’ve never tried to blame someone else for my error, if it was truly my error.  People are just different now.  I wasWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEDisclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

Feeling Too Much

I&apos;m just sharing with my new goals for the Month of May - on May 1.  We are going to be making some changes to the podcast.  I&apos;m a going to try to go back to three a week,  it will be a little more work, but I need to get some income from the podcast.  I do this for fun, but its not free.  Also I weighed this morning and I&apos;m back up to 177 which is 11 lbs more than what I weighed in November so my goal for May is 5 pounds and I will be going back to do Keto.  Thanks for listening to my podcast, please keep sharing, downloading and please support us!Thanks,LauraBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

New Month New Start May 1

All my life I’ve heard the phrase “I’m my own worst enemy.”  I never truly understood that as a teenager or a young adult, but today I can tell you that is true for a lot of people and I am one of them.   For most of my life I have fought an ongoing battle with myself because of my weight.  Just as I started to feel like I was in control, I had a wreck and now six months later, I’m still having issues that keep me from exercising and I’ve gained back 9 pounds.  I can’t run/walk/jog the 2.5 or 2.75 miles that I was doing in the first part of November.  I’m stress eating and like I said I’m gaining weight and my body feels awful.  I know 9 pounds doesn’t sound like a lot, but to someone who fights their weight on a daily basis that is almost the end of the world. Now to add to the stress of the weight, I still feel very inadequate when it come to my job.  I don’t feel like I have a true grasp of everything that has to happen to move people’s pets.  Part of the stress in this is knowing that if I miss something or forget something it could be catastrophic. Also, for the first time in over 30 years I am being written up for something that I don’t feel like was totally my fault.Of course then we come to the podcast.  I’ve had a few supporters which is awesome and I’m so thankful for those few.  I think however to grow more I need to make some changes to the program and see if I can pull in more supporters.  Maybe, instead of changing this one, I start a new one.  This one is my therapy.  I want to increase my listener base and I’m still hoping for that sponsor that is willing to sign a contract and pays on a monthly basis for mentions in the podcast.  Today, one of my close friends reached out and asked how I was, had I received any job offers/leads and how was work.  My reply was simply, “I’m good.  Work is work and no leads/offers and I guess I’m where I’m supposed to be for now.”  Her response, “For Now.”   She still works for the company where I was laid off. I know that God has more plans for me, but some days it is more than I can handle.  I don’t even like leaving the house now.  I cry a lot and for no apparent reason.  My anger flares up and is uncontrollable some times.  I can’t stop worrying about what’s going to happen when we have to move again.  Do we rent and not try to buy?  My brain never shuts down.  I feel like I have let everyone down in my family.  I constantly try to control my appetite, make money, do the best I can at my job and be a good person.  I go to bed every night feeling like a failure.  Then to make matters worse, I don’t sleep good at all.  I know I have shared many times about my addiction to antacids.  I was doing well!  I was down to three bottles a week from 14 a week.  No I run out before it is time to buy groceries again.  I eat them and then I hate my inability to refrain from eating them.  It is the same with food in general.My other daily struggle is dealing with pain.  I have two autoimmune disorders one of which is fibromyalgia.  I’m fine most of the time during the day but at night when I lay down that is when the pain is the worst  My left side is where the pain  is and I don’t understand because it was the front right of the car that had all the damage.  So shouldn’t it be my right side with the pain from the wreck?  I can take pain pills and I can drink alcohol to help ease it at night, but that is not something I want to do.  Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

My Worst Enemy

Hey everyone,   Just sharing some updates on my fitness and life in general. Finally made it walking a mile last week .  That was the first time since the wreck in November.  Still having issues with my left knee and hip.  Next step is an MRI and I don&apos;t want to pay out that money. We are going to be changing up the podcast some.  Try to do a simulcast in Spanish maybe.  Maybe some true crime stories.Also trying to figure out what is the next step in life.  It is busy in pet relocation, just like people relocation, summer time gets busy.  Please listen, download and share with family and friends!  If you would like to support us, please click on buy me a cup of coffee. Have a blessed day!Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

Fitness and Life Updates

Fairy tales that start with Once upon a time are not really fairy tales of love and happily ever after.  They are tales of distress, entrapment and normally some horrible outcomes. Some of the outcomes are death, life imprisonment or suffering cruelty at the hands of someone with more power or more money.  Power and money don’t always belong to one person.  Sometimes one will possess the power and another possesses the money.  Occasionally those items are both controlled by one single entity.  Evil exists in all places in this world.  Sometimes it is so bad you can feel it when you walk into a place or up to a person.  It is a feeling that you can’t wash off or back away from.  You have to leave and get away as far as possible from the person or the place.  I’ve felt that a few times in my life and I should have gone with my gut feeling.  There is always hindsight in those situations.  What do you do?  How do you act?  How do you get away?  I’m not sure I have those answers.  In one such situation, it was only after several weeks of heartache and problems, did I finally find the courage to say no and leave.  Sometimes the cruelty we suffer at the hands of another person is not physical but mental.  That is the cruelty that is the hardest to recognize and the hardest to break away from and most of the time there is guilt felt by the victim and not by the abuser.  There is no hero on white horse to come save the fair maiden.  There is no hero to slay the dragon and sometimes, with no hope insight, the fair maiden will decide to make the ultimate sacrifice instead of enduring the abuse.  Sometimes with the sadness and despair become too much, the victim doesn’t see any other way to get away.  They will take the poison, plunge the dagger into their own heart, or jump off the ledge.  They don’t have any hope left.  They’ve waited and waited for someone to help them.  They don’t know how to ask for that help or where to find the help that they need to escape.  As a last resort, they believe their only hope is to seek death by whatever means that might be for them.  Breaking a glass, using a knife, taking the pills, drinking the poison, jumping off the ledge or in some cases they attack the abuser hoping they will get angry and kill them.  It is a sad and bleak day when the news has to be broken to a family that their loved one has died either by their own hands or at the hands of an abuser.  Suicidal thoughts are not as uncommon as some people would think.  There have been a couple of times that I have thought about it, but I’m too much of a coward and could never do it.  There are people that are past the point of caring, hoping and feeling or they feel too much.  If you are someone you know has those thoughts or you know they need help, reach out to them or call someone to get them some help.  The suicide hotline is a toll free call:  800-273-8255.  If you feel like you are in a situation where you can’t win or get away and you think the only way out is death, make the call.  If you can’t make the call because of the situation, get a message to a family member or a friend.  Go to someone you do feel you can trust.  And if someone tells you to get a restraining order against your abuser, remember that is just a piece of paper.  It won’t stop anyone who is hell bent on hurting you. Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

FairyTales NOT

Life or death?  Those two words have a lot of meanings separate or together.  Sometimes one person can hold another person’s life and death in their hands.  It is said that over 150,000 people die roughly a day across the world.  How does that break down?  That is 6,250 people per hour, 104 people per minute and 1.74 people per second. Let that sink in?  How many people do you know that have lost someone.  Over the last year, lots of people have lost love ones to the Covid 19 virus.  So let’s take this one step further.  How many people die each day at the hands of another person, like being murdered?  400,000 homicides per year, 1096 homicides per day, 18.2 homicides per minute, .30 people per second are murdered.The question now is how many of those go unsolved.  How many unsolved murders are there in the world, in the United States, in Texas and in your city?  It is estimated that there are about 250,000 unsolved murders in the world and that number increases by about 6,000 a year.  According to Project Cold Case there are 15, 050 that are unsolved for Texas.  So how long does it take before a case is deemed a cold case?  That is defined by the agency.  A cold case is a case where probative leads have been exhausted. That could mean a case that is only a few months old can be deemed as a cold case. The oldest unsolved cold case in Texas, took place in Denton, Texas at the campus known today as Texas Women’s University in June of 1948 and is yet unsolved.  Many of those familiar with Carpenter’s case speculate that she might have been a victim of an unidentified serial killer. Known as The Phantom Killer of Texarkana, the serial killer attacked eight people, five of whom were killed, in the Texarkana area in the span of several months in 1946. Interestingly enough, Carpenter did know three of the victims of this serial killer. To date, the Phantom Killer has never been caught or named.Serial killers have always been an interest to me since the movies about Hannibal Lecter who is totally fictional.  So how many serial killers have been identified in Texas?  There are at least 17 that I have been able to find and we are going to be exploring those over the next few weeks and other unsolved murders and ghost stories.  My niece’s murder is considered a cold case.  I will try to do one on her case but I’m not sure I can as it causes lots of emotions and heart ache.   Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

Life and Death

So Since March of 2020 Most of the world has had portable jobs working remotely. Not saying that everyone was able to work through the pandemic, but a lot of people with office jobs were sent home and were given the tools to work remotely.  Some of us got used to working from home and are not looking forward to having to return to the work place.  I currently have a job working remotely.  The only way I will have to go back to an office is if I have to get another job for some reason.  The only reason would be for money.  I have my podcast and really want to make it work and get an income coming in for that.  I need to find sponsors and the fees need to be by the month.  I think the fee structure needs to be based on pre-roll, mid roll or post roll.  Depending on the sponsor and how they want it set up. You get mentioned in every podcast and you pay a set fee.  Other people have portable jobs but are still doing the same jobs they had inside a corporate office.  Those people will probably eventually return to a corporate setting.  However, if leases could be broken, the businesses could save money on overhead for having a physical office.  They could just revert to having a small office with a conference room and a small kitchen area to entertain clients.  If all corporate offices reverted to that set up, what do you think would happen to all the office space around major metropolitan areas?  Would/could those areas be turned in to housing for people? Just think about the possibilities?  It would however only work if corporate giants didn’t take it over and make the rent so high that no one could live there.  Could it be turned in to stores?  Eating places?  Probably not, but they might be able to convert them to other useful spaces like medical offices, specialized schools, or maybe special homes for children that are taken in to foster care or from abused homes or maybe a shelter for women or children that need a temporary escape.  I don’t really think we need all of that office space.  We’ve proven over the last 12 months that we can make it work outside an office setting.  I’m sure that there were those people that could not handle working from home.  I’m also sure that there are those people that learned to be more productive and balance work/life.  I was one of those.  I found a way to take care of the house, work the podcast, exercise to a healthier life style and take care of my family while working.  It can be done and that is really the lifestyle I’m looking to keep.  I pray every day for help to come for my podcast in the way of a sponsor, a bigger audience and a break through on the program itself.  I’m seriously thinking about starting a second podcast and doing stories.  I have several books/stories that I have written and I think it would be good, but it would have to be from an author standpoint as I’m not any good with voices like in Audible.  I’m not sure what tomorrow holds for anyone.  I’m not sure where the podcast will go, but I do know that this is something I’m supposed to do whether it is a personal journal or true crime or romance stories or just whatever.  Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

Portable Jobs

So I’m not sure who watched it, but a remake of the Equalizer premiered after the Superbowl this year.  The first time The Equalizer appeared on Television was in 1985 and starred Edward Woodard.  He was a former Covert operations officer and the show ran up 1989.  Just like the new series, he obtained his clients from placing an ad.  However, in 1985 it was in the Newspaper.Denzel Washington made the first film, The Equalizer and it came out in 2014 and it was based on an American Vigilante.  He was a Former Marine and worked for the Defense Intelligence Agency.  Now the name of the Equalizer in both the first series and the movie was Robert Mc Call.  Both were excellent shows and I love it when the underdog wins in these shows with the help of a “Ghost” so to speak.  The new series stars Queen Latifah and she is excellent in the show.  I believe she is ex-CIA and Chris Noth from “Law and Order Series” plays her ex-boss and is trying to get her to work for him.  But she says she can do more good on her own.  Her name in this series is Robyn McCall and she is every bit as good as the guys and she has a family in it which makes it a little unique as I don’t remember the guys having a family.  Queen Latifah has some catchy come backs when she is scoping out the criminals and working with her peeps.  One, who is a hacker who McCall helped avoid a life sentence for hacking the police department.  However, he married the other peep who has a special skill as a sniper. And says he traded one life sentence for another.  Robyn McCall gets her clients the same as the men who played this part; however, she has an ad on the Internet. It is an awesome show and I highly recommend it.  Check it out!  I can’t wait for the next episode. Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.

The Equalizer

Brachycephalic, Aggressive Breeds and TemperatureEveryone loves pugs, Pekingese, and French bull dogs, but those dogs are actually restricted breeds when it comes to flying.  Snub-nosed dogs and cats are considered Brachycephalic which can lead to severe respiratory distress. Brachycephalic means snort headed.  They are all cute dogs and cats and a lot of people don’t realize it can be an issue when you decide to relocate or take a job in another country. A lot of the airlines have list of restricted breeds that are allowed to fly. Common examples of snub-nosed dogs and cats are English Bulldogs, French Bull Dogs, Pugs, Pekingese, Boston Terriers and king Charles spaniels, Persian cats, Scottish Fold cats, Himalayan, Bermese and British shorthair just to name a few.  Aggressive Breeds is something else that is restricted on airlines or what the airlines consider to be restricted.  Some countries even prohibited certain breeds from entering. Germany no longer allows Pitbull terrier, American Staffordshire terrier, Staffordshire-Bullterrier or Bullterrier.  You can transit through the country, but not stay. You can usually call or google the airlines to see what the restrictions are for flying dogs, but most if not all have restricted breeds.Temperature is something else that has to be considered when shipping pets.  Most airlines have guidelines as to how cold and how hot it can be to ship your babies.  Airlines often require an Acclimation disclaimer or letter filled out by you and your vet with the max/min temperatures that are allowed.  Also, it includes the entire trip if there are layovers.  All the reasons above are why you need to contact World Pet Travel prior to making reservations to ship your babies to a new country.  They can tell you upfront what, when, where and how it is done. Don’t wait until it is too late to get your baby on the flight.  Call them when you first make the decision to relocate and let them help you get your baby there.The website is www.worldpettravel.com  They have 23 years of experience.  Trust them with your furry family members. Against the Rocks - Teespring Store Teespring Store to promote productsWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEDisclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

Brachycephalic Aggressive and Temperature

Today, we celebrate our 15th wedding anniversary.  Never in my life did I think I would say those words.  I actually never thought I would get married until I met the man that is my husband.It was truly by God’s intervention that we met.  We had a small wedding, western themed.  My daughter was my maid of honor.  His brother was the best man.  We had his brother perform the ceremony.  It was a nice and small wedding.  We were surrounded by family and friends.We had three cakes.  Grooms cake with peanut butter icing, the wedding cake with three different flavor layers and as a side note, a maid of honor cake. My daughter always referred to herself as the princess, so we did a German Chocolate with a Cinderella carriage on it. It was a special day for her as well.  Our wedding was at a small country church where my husband’s mother was a member.  The reception was in the family life building/gym.  Our wedding wasn’t fancy but it was perfect for us. We tried to involve our kids.  His sons were part of the wedding party and my daughter was my maid of honor.  My niece played the piano.We didn’t do formal attire as I stated, it was western themed and clothes were reusable – so money wasn’t wasted on a dress that I would never wear again.  Not that a wedding dress is wasteful, but money wise it was not within the budget and it just wasn’t me.We also had a short travel by car, honeymoon.  We both had jobs to get back to and things that needed to be done. Honey I love you with all my heart, body and soul.  I have no regrets other than I wish we had met earlier in our lives.  Here’s to the next 35 years – to make it to 50 years of wedded bliss.Love you Honey!Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEAgainst the Rocks - Teespring Store Teespring Store to promote productsWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

Our 15th Wedding Anniversary

 Just because you are born in the south or living in the south does not make you a racist.  Are we good ole’ boys and girls, yes we are.  Do we enjoy hunting, fishing and outdoor gatherings?  Yes we do. I have never been a slave owner, now has any of my ancestors at least back to when they came from England.  I had a great, great, great grandfather that came from England as an indentured servant.  It doesn’t matter to me what color your skin is or where you came from or where you live or what you want your gender to be.  However, there are only two genders, male and female.  If you want to identify as a woman and you are a man that is up to you, but that doesn’t change the fact that you are a male. I say all of this because the whole world has gone on a tantrum about race, gender, religion and I’m really tired of hearing about it and seeing it on television.  Our history is just that, history. Removing statues and renaming schools, buildings, streets and parks is offensive to me because that is my history.  It is your history as well if you were born in the United States.  If you have come to my country, the United States of America to escape a country where you don’t have the freedoms that are available here, then do it the right way and become a citizen.  That means that you give up your citizenship from the country you left and you become an American.  You can’t still be Indian and an American unless you are going to hold dual citizenship and if that is what you are doing, then it probably means you didn’t leave the other country because of hardships.  If you were born in America, you are an American.   Again if you were born in America, you are an American.  You might have Hispanic ancestors or African ancestors or Asian ancestors, but you are an American if you were born here.  You can be proud of your ancestry, and you should be. If you are here to become an American, than do what you need to do to accomplish that goal.  Just because your parents dragged you here as a young child doesn’t mean you get a free ride or it shouldn’t.  If you have been here long enough to graduate from college or start college, they apply for citizenship like an adult and do what is right.  I’m tired of hearing about all the illegals that are coming here and they are getting benefits handed to them when Americans have to pay or they are fined or penalized for not following the rules.  I’m tired of working to pay for others to get benefits that just need to go get a job.  If you have a family to provide for then go get a job.  Minimum wage is better than nothing.  Pride should not keep you from getting a job doing something to put food on the table or pay rent.  You can apply for help with benefits, but it is not a permanent handout.  It is to help you until you are able to get a job that pays more. I have had to work all my life to get to where I am today.  I’m not rich and we barely pay our bills, but we have a roof over our heads, clothes on our backs and food on our table.  We do not look for handouts or expect people to just hand us things.  That is not the way it is supposed to work.  You have to work for the things you want in life.  You have to have ethics and morals and you have to obey the laws.  If you look for trouble you will find it.  If you pull a gun on someone, chances are you can lose your life or go to jail.  Those are all decisions you as a person makes.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)Against the Rocks - Teespring Store Teespring Store to promote productsBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEDisclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.

I'm Not a Racist

In the almost 15 years that we have been married, we have owned, rented, owned and now we are renting again.  In all of this time, we have kind of made a mental list of what we like about the different places and what we don’t. We would like to be able to pay and build as we go but I’m not sure that is going to be possible based on our salary at this time.  However, we continue to make a list:Things we don’t like:·         No windows in the back/front of the house·         Small bathrooms·         Utility closet instead of a utility room·         No screen/storm doors·         Galley kitchens·         No separation between living and dining rooms·         Single sinks in the bathroom·         Not having a usable fireplace·         Bathrooms so small two people won’t fit in the room·         Cabinets that don’t have movable shelves or are not the right height/depth for dishes to fit·         Two garage doors·         Square footage – we need about 1800 Things we do like:·         The smaller yard because it is easier to take care of·         The shape of the rooms·         Placement of the utility room off the kitchen·         Carpet in all the rooms·         Kitchen window·         Covered back porch·         Wrap around porches·         Fenced back yard – 8-10 foot·         Double car garage·         Walk in closets ·         Lots of electrical outlets·         Attic storageWe know kind of what we want as far as bedrooms and bathrooms and work roomsWe know we like the smaller yard but we will probably have some land so I can do a rescue or have more pets.Where and when are really our major questions.  Our lease was for 15 months and that started in November of 2020.  Our other issue is how we are going to finance it.  I’m no longer making what I was.  I would actually like a piece of land that we can build on and live there while it is being built. We pray every day that my podcast will take off and we will be able to pay cash.  I try to find new ways to monetize the podcast and have a T-spring store with Against the Rocks on it.We know that God will show us what we need to do and how we are going to do it. We just have to listen.Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEAgainst the Rocks - Teespring Store Teespring Store to promote productsWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)

Owning Vs Renting

Think about that word for a minute.  Everyone has one.  Its not just on a gun, although in today&apos;s time that is an important one. Trigger by definition is a small device that releases a spring or catch and so sets off a mechanism, especially in a gun.It s also defined as "cause to happen or exist (event or situation).  For example "an allergy can be triggered by stress or overwork".  If you think about it, other words that go with trigger are: finger, words, happy, warning, point, food and there are also triggers in psychology.  Trigger foods - this effects you if you have an eating disorder like compulsive overeating.  I fall into that category as well as some others.  A trigger finger is the forefinger of the hand that typically is used to pull the trigger on a gun.  A trigger is something that causes someone to have a extreme reaction.  It can be fear, upset or anger or another emotion, especially because of some traumatic event in their life. Some of my trigger foods are cookie dough like sugar cookies or chocolate chips cookie dough.  Chips - they are another big trigger.  However, when I get upset or stressed, it triggers me to my addiction to antacids, Walmart&apos;s equate brand especially.  My anger is also triggered when people talk down to me like I&apos;m stupid or call me an idiot and whatever the irritation is, you do not want me to start yelling.  Calling me names is a sure way to get that started.  I get frustrated and angry when I can&apos;t pay bills or even set up a budget because of our salaries these past several months. My OCD is triggered when I can&apos;t keep things on calendar especially if I don&apos;t know about them. Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29)Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREEAgainst the Rocks - Teespring Store Teespring Store to promote productsWorld Pet Travel - We Can Move Your Pets It is not as easy as you may think to move your furry children to a new country or across country. Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links. If you make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no extra cost to you.

Triggers

Against The Rocks! This is my personal journal. I was furloughed in April of 2020 and laid off on August 7th due to Covid19. Although I will be sharing about my OCD and my struggle daily with it, this is also where I'm going to talk about anything that comes to mind!!! I'm old and I don't have that filter between my brain and my mouth so you never know what is going to come out. I like to share about things that happen with my dogs, cats, life in general, weight loss journey, fitness and gaming, and my new job in relocation! Since being furloughed in April, I've been trying to re-establish myself and maybe, just maybe, create a new career. Please check out my website! If you would like to contact me with suggestions for my podcast or to make any comments, please email me at Laura@Dog-Genuity.com. Thanks for downloading, subscribing and please take a moment to rate my podcast! HAVE AN AWESOME DAY! Please consider donating to help keep us on the air! https://www.buymeacoffee.com/lsfarnsworth29

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