I switched during therapy and my therapist asked me what age I was. I felt the urge to say 15. Something significant must have happened when I was 15, but as my Funny self, I have limited memories when it comes to my childhood. My partner feels weird about one of my dominant identities being so young. My therapist and my Sad Self discussed talking about the trauma.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

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Discovering That My Sad Self Is Only 15

Moved due to construction, moved back due to PTSD.  It feels as though Sad Self has disconnected from us, I can't seem to find her but I can feel her. Hot and cold feelings while dating my ex, but to be honest there are some challenges with being with someone like me. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Moving Twice in Just a Few Weeks, Struggling With Deep Depression, Hot And Cold in Dating

Anxiety and how it feels. Cannabis and how it affects my anxiety. I have a huge fear of hospitalization, I probably wouldn't get back out. Psychological professionals pushing integration. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Cannabis and it's Effects on my Anxiety and DID, Fear of Hospitalization, Pysch Professionals and Integration

I switched during a date and had to explain what happened, leading me to crying in front of a brand new person. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Disastrous Date due to Switching and Crying

I have very little motivation to do anything at all. I haven't been able to bring myself to do any of the things that I used to enjoy doing. Ruining relationships because of switching between my different identities and what each identity wants from a relationship. It is really hard to make ends meet when you are disabled. You can actually help support me at anchor.fm/pluralself and clicking the button that says Support This Podcast. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Depression, Self-Medicating with Oversleeping, Different Identities Complicating Relationships, Making Ends Meet When You are Disabled

I have actually doubled my dose. I do feel quite a bit better. I do have quite a big issue that I often struggle with, and that is impulsivity. I'm currently in the process of packing up and moving because my rent is about to go up by several hundred dollars. Moving isn't easy for somebody with dissociative identity disorder. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Mood Stabilizer is Working, Impulsivity, Moving with DID

It can be very confusing if I stop and try to think about who I am. Maybe I'm starting to integrate? I don't feel quite so divided lately. My employment situation is a mess; my financial situation has been a mess as a result of not having enough employment. It's really no wonder that I've been stuck in Bitch mode for so long. She is the one that comes out under high pressure situations. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Maybe I'm Starting To Integrate, My Employment and Financial Situation Is A Mess

I was switching so much, back and forth, that I wiped myself out, and I lost some time physically reacting to that.  I probably lost another friend in the process of being jerked around by my different identities.  I would love to function the way that the rest of you all do. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

I Have Had a Very Switchy Day, Having a Picnic With my DID Friend, Wishing I Didn't Have DID

I am mostly struggling with some loneliness.  I went out to meet a new person, but I don't feel comfortable telling this person about my condition yet.  I'm thinking of going back to school, I'm tired of feeling tired and depressed. I'm trying to find a goal that will pull me into the future rather than sitting here feeling stuck. A large part of why I keep failing at life is the fact that I have dissociative identity disorder. My different identities have different goals, and sometimes these goals conflict with one another.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Loneliness, Losing Time, The Cause of My DID, Fear of Stigma

It's kind of an amazing thing, this thing that my brain does in order for me to survive. If I need to become someone else in order to survive, I can.  I have four dominant identities: Bitch, Mama, Funny, and Sad.  Discovering a self trigger, something that I do in order to tag in and out. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

DID Overview from a Patient's Perspective, My Dominant Identities, Discovering A Self Trigger

Relationship issues and figuring out that my trauma has caused me to choose people who are not going to be emotionally available.  The trauma of losing time to dissociation. Falling for someone that is not available but appreciating that they draw Bitch out without any negative triggers.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Bitch has a Low Pitched Voice, Trauma Sourced Relationship Issues, Bitch Being Drawn out without Negative Triggers, The Trauma of Losing Time due to Dissociation

I just met a new person and I have already told her about my condition. For some reason I feel like my condition could be a deal breaker for other people.  Maintaining old friendships is also incredibly difficult. A few people have either adjusted or figured out the rhythm.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Meeting New People And Trying to Make Friends When You Have Dissociative Identity Disorder

I'm been spending a lot of time focused on trying to eliminate risks. Going to therapy to help ground myself.  Triggers this week: Friends being controlling; Rejection based on prior relationship histories.  Financial stress is keeping my Bitch self fronting.  Learning that I can try practicing gratitude.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Bitch Self Shaved Our Head as a Result of Feeling Activated in Safety Mode

My different selves have different gender identities, as well as sexual orientations.  How my sexual or romantic partners react to my varying sexual orientations.  Presenting the idea of working different jobs as different selves in order to be able to be productive. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

The Different Gender Identifications of My Different Selves

I've been stuck in Bitch Self for the majority of yet another week. Fronting and what it means to me.  Boundary triggers tend to bring my Bitch Self out. Acknowledging that I overwhelm my friends and partners by being an exponent of myself.  --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/pluralself/support

Stuck in Bitch Self, Fronting, Boundary Triggers, Overwhelming Friends and Partners

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