Joy talks about taboo territory like incest porn, being HSV-2 positive, and trying out “water sports.” She has early memories of non-consensual experiences, which led to weak boundaries and a tendency towards dissociation and passivity. A hysterectomy and genital changes further changed her body and libido. She’s always enjoyed masturbation and has been unpartnered for some time; she’s ready to explore again.   Joy is a 44-year-old cisgender female. She describes herself as white, monogamous, bisexual. She is post-menopausal and has had ovarian cancer and a full hysterectomy. She describes her body as pear-shaped and wears hearing aids.   Bookmark moments: 2:28 - Joy shares her first memory of sexual pleasure, cuddling with a pillow between her legs and then starting a relationship with her bathtub. 6:09 - Joy lost her virginity at age 14; she considers herself to have given consent but she also knows she dissociated, and remembers staring at a blooming tree out the window. There were indications of earlier trauma. 9:56 - She talks about a girlfriend she sometimes fooled around with, and a series of physical interactions in which she was not fully present and struggled with boundaries. 15:58 - Joy comes out to her father as bisexual. 18:42 - She finally experiences pleasure with a sort of friend who offers benefits. She feels passive at the beginning, but then she starts to really enjoy the sex. 23:36 - The relationship ends, and she has a few hookups. Unfortunately, she contracts herpes after one exchange. She opens up about how she managed it in subsequent relationships; she has both disclosed her status, and not disclosed her status. It’s a hard conversation. 32:57 - Her most recent past relationship was pretty vanilla. The longer one before involved some kink exploration, including “water sports.” 36:23 - She has a long-distance relationship with an older man; it doesn’t end well. There hasn’t been anyone since, just frequent masturbation. She’d been content alone until listening to the podcast and starting to wonder. 40:35 - Joy went through ovarian cancer a few years ago and she had to have a full hysterectomy. She talks about how it has impacted her body. One of the things she experienced was genital restructuring. Her orgasms and arousal have changed. 52:00 - They talk about how to be more present in one’s body.   The Lowdown: Joy answers questions about sex on her period, number of partners, favorite toy, favorite position, initiating, breast play, clit stimulation vs penetration, orgasming, faking it, solo vs partnered, kinds of touch, hard red lines, dirty talk, porn, incest porn, hair vs bare, three-ways, blowjobs, swallowing, receiving oral, taste and smell, ass play, kink, dirty talk, favorite body part, least favorite body part, unmet desires, and old beliefs.   Resources: Sensational Body Scan - https://www.leahcarey.com/downloads/sensational-body-scan/   Patreon: All archived Good Girls Talk About Sex audio extras are now available for FREE!  They can be accessed at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.  I've done this because not everyone has the means to pay for access, and I know this additional material can be deeply important for some listeners. But creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at www.leahcarey.com/guest   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk YouTube - www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk Leah's website - www.leahcarey.com Podcast website - www.goodgirlstalk.com   WORK WITH LEAH: Individual and couples coaching - www.leahcarey.com/coaching     EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak  

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Water sports and incest porn – Joy

Joy talks about taboo territory like incest porn, being HSV-2 positive, and trying out “water sports.” She has early memories of non-consensual experiences, which led to weak boundaries and a tendency towards dissociation and passivity. A hysterectomy and genital changes further changed her body and libido. She’s always enjoyed masturbation and has been unpartnered for some time; she’s ready to explore again.   Joy is a 44-year-old cisgender female. She describes herself as white, monogamous, bisexual. She is post-menopausal and has had ovarian cancer and a full hysterectomy. She describes her body as pear-shaped and wears hearing aids.   Bookmark moments: <ul> <li>2:28 - Joy shares her first memory of sexual pleasure, cuddling with a pillow between her legs and then starting a relationship with her bathtub.</li> <li>6:09 - Joy lost her virginity at age 14; she considers herself to have given consent but she also knows she dissociated, and remembers staring at a blooming tree out the window. There were indications of earlier trauma.</li> <li>9:56 - She talks about a girlfriend she sometimes fooled around with, and a series of physical interactions in which she was not fully present and struggled with boundaries.</li> <li>15:58 - Joy comes out to her father as bisexual.</li> <li>18:42 - She finally experiences pleasure with a sort of friend who offers benefits. She feels passive at the beginning, but then she starts to really enjoy the sex.</li> <li>23:36 - The relationship ends, and she has a few hookups. Unfortunately, she contracts herpes after one exchange. She opens up about how she managed it in subsequent relationships; she has both disclosed her status, and not disclosed her status. It’s a hard conversation.</li> <li>32:57 - Her most recent past relationship was pretty vanilla. The longer one before involved some kink exploration, including “water sports.”</li> <li>36:23 - She has a long-distance relationship with an older man; it doesn’t end well. There hasn’t been anyone since, just frequent masturbation. She’d been content alone until listening to the podcast and starting to wonder.</li> <li>40:35 - Joy went through ovarian cancer a few years ago and she had to have a full hysterectomy. She talks about how it has impacted her body. One of the things she experienced was genital restructuring. Her orgasms and arousal have changed.</li> <li>52:00 - They talk about how to be more present in one’s body.</li> </ul>   The Lowdown: Joy answers questions about sex on her period, number of partners, favorite toy, favorite position, initiating, breast play, clit stimulation vs penetration, orgasming, faking it, solo vs partnered, kinds of touch, hard red lines, dirty talk, porn, incest porn, hair vs bare, three-ways, blowjobs, swallowing, receiving oral, taste and smell, ass play, kink, dirty talk, favorite body part, least favorite body part, unmet desires, and old beliefs.   Resources: Sensational Body Scan - <a href= "https://www.leahcarey.com/downloads/sensational-body-scan/" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">https://www.leahcarey.com/downloads/sensational-body-scan/</a>   <a href="http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target= "_blank" rel= "noopener">Patreon</a>: All archived Good Girls Talk About Sex audio extras are now available for FREE!  They can be accessed at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.  I've done this because not everyone has the means to pay for access, and I know this additional material can be deeply important for some listeners. But creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/guest" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/guest</a>   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - <a href= "http://www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk</a> YouTube - <a href= "http://www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk</a> Leah's website - <a href= "http://www.leahcarey.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.leahcarey.com</a> Podcast website - <a href= "http://www.goodgirlstalk.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.goodgirlstalk.com</a>   WORK WITH LEAH: Individual and couples coaching - <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/coaching" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/coaching</a>     EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (<a href= "mailto:leah@goodgirlstalkaboutsex.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">email</a>) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

Brenda grew up in a “sex silent” household and transitioned right into purity culture. For a naturally highly sexual person, this spelled dysfunction and disaster. She found her way out of abuse and repression, went through a period of intense exploration, and she is now an advocate and educator for other survivors of religious trauma. She shares her truth publicly and celebrates all of her experiences—even the “dark” ones, as they have anchored her learning along the healing journey.     Brenda Marie Davies is a 37-year-old cisgender woman. She describes herself as bisexual, open-minded, and single.  She describes her body as slim.   Book: On Her Knees: Memoir of a Prayerful Jezebel Website: www.godisgrey.com YouTube: www.youtube.com/godisgrey   THANKS TO OUR SPONSOR FOR THIS EPISODE: *** DIPSEA STORIES: go to www.dipseastories.com/goodgirls to get a 30-day FREE trial!   Bookmark moments: 3:47 - Brenda shares her first memory of sexual pleasure as early as age 3, rubbing on a couch and being redirected by her mother to do such in private. She grew up in what she calls a “sex silent” household, in which the sole sex discussion was an Oprah video about STD’s. 9:00 - Brenda talks about how being exposed to Evangelical culture in puberty impacted her actions and outlook. 12:51 - Brenda shares an early fantasy around a boy at school which became an ongoing ravishment fantasy to circumvent Evangelical strictures (even though it uses victim blame phrases like “cause a brother to stumble.”) 19:43 - She talks about how she got into purity culture. She was a late bloomer, still playing Barbies in a Britney world, and she thought it gave her some safety. It did not; predation and dysfunction just changed shape. 25:35 - Brenda meets her husband at age 21, on MySpace. 32:09 - Brenda shares the story of losing her virginity on purpose to a guy she didn’t plan to see again, her search through the Bible for sense, and her overlapping experiences with anorexia and a hymenectomy. Also, she ends up marrying him. 41:48 - Disembodiment is an issue, and weaponized scripture doesn’t help. She also describes a role-playing adventure which backfires, and the dissolution of her marriage. 51:45 - She opens up about having a forced abortion in the midst of an abusive relationship in the midst of an exploration spree. 57:23- Brenda talks about some of her sexcapades. 1:02:18 - Brenda is bisexual; she shares her Star Wars-related coming out story. 1:09:58 - Brenda catches us up to present day and being single, including her advocacy work and living in deep personal integrity.   The Lowdown: Brenda answers questions about having sex on her period, number of partners, race, sex toys, positions, initiating or not, active vs passive, clit stimulation vs penetration, breast play, orgasming, g-spot, faking it, kinds of touch, hard red lines, porn, group sex, hair vs bare, blowjobs, swallowing, receiving oral, ass play, kink, dirty talk, laughter, confusing sexual urges, favorite body part, least favorite body part, sex life areas to improve, and old beliefs.   Patreon: All archived Good Girls Talk About Sex audio extras are now available for FREE!  They can be accessed at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.  I've done this because not everyone has the means to pay for access, and I know this additional material can be deeply important for some listeners. But creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at www.leahcarey.com/guest   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk YouTube - www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk Leah's website - www.leahcarey.com Podcast website - www.goodgirlstalk.com   WORK WITH LEAH: Individual and couples coaching - www.leahcarey.com/coaching     EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

The Evangelical Church Stunted My Sexuality – Brenda Marie Davies

Brenda grew up in a “sex silent” household and transitioned right into purity culture. For a naturally highly sexual person, this spelled dysfunction and disaster. She found her way out of abuse and repression, went through a period of intense exploration, and she is now an advocate and educator for other survivors of religious trauma. She shares her truth publicly and celebrates all of her experiences—even the “dark” ones, as they have anchored her learning along the healing journey.     Brenda Marie Davies is a 37-year-old cisgender woman. She describes herself as bisexual, open-minded, and single.  She describes her body as slim.   Book: On Her Knees: Memoir of a Prayerful Jezebel Website: <a href="http://www.godisgrey.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.godisgrey.com</a> YouTube: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/godisgrey" target= "_blank" rel="noopener">www.youtube.com/godisgrey</a>   THANKS TO OUR SPONSOR FOR THIS EPISODE: *** DIPSEA STORIES: go to <a href= "http://www.dipseastories.com/goodgirls" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.dipseastories.com/goodgirls</a> to get a 30-day FREE trial!   Bookmark moments: <ul> <li>3:47 - Brenda shares her first memory of sexual pleasure as early as age 3, rubbing on a couch and being redirected by her mother to do such in private. She grew up in what she calls a “sex silent” household, in which the sole sex discussion was an Oprah video about STD’s.</li> <li>9:00 - Brenda talks about how being exposed to Evangelical culture in puberty impacted her actions and outlook.</li> <li>12:51 - Brenda shares an early fantasy around a boy at school which became an ongoing ravishment fantasy to circumvent Evangelical strictures (even though it uses victim blame phrases like “cause a brother to stumble.”)</li> <li>19:43 - She talks about how she got into purity culture. She was a late bloomer, still playing Barbies in a Britney world, and she thought it gave her some safety. It did not; predation and dysfunction just changed shape.</li> <li>25:35 - Brenda meets her husband at age 21, on MySpace.</li> <li>32:09 - Brenda shares the story of losing her virginity on purpose to a guy she didn’t plan to see again, her search through the Bible for sense, and her overlapping experiences with anorexia and a hymenectomy. Also, she ends up marrying him.</li> <li>41:48 - Disembodiment is an issue, and weaponized scripture doesn’t help. She also describes a role-playing adventure which backfires, and the dissolution of her marriage.</li> <li>51:45 - She opens up about having a forced abortion in the midst of an abusive relationship in the midst of an exploration spree.</li> <li>57:23- Brenda talks about some of her sexcapades.</li> <li>1:02:18 - Brenda is bisexual; she shares her Star Wars-related coming out story.</li> <li>1:09:58 - Brenda catches us up to present day and being single, including her advocacy work and living in deep personal integrity.</li> </ul>   The Lowdown: Brenda answers questions about having sex on her period, number of partners, race, sex toys, positions, initiating or not, active vs passive, clit stimulation vs penetration, breast play, orgasming, g-spot, faking it, kinds of touch, hard red lines, porn, group sex, hair vs bare, blowjobs, swallowing, receiving oral, ass play, kink, dirty talk, laughter, confusing sexual urges, favorite body part, least favorite body part, sex life areas to improve, and old beliefs.   <a href="http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target= "_blank" rel= "noopener">Patreon</a>: All archived Good Girls Talk About Sex audio extras are now available for FREE!  They can be accessed at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.  I've done this because not everyone has the means to pay for access, and I know this additional material can be deeply important for some listeners. But creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/guest" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/guest</a>   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - <a href= "http://www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk</a> YouTube - <a href= "http://www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk</a> Leah's website - <a href= "http://www.leahcarey.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.leahcarey.com</a> Podcast website - <a href= "http://www.goodgirlstalk.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.goodgirlstalk.com</a>   WORK WITH LEAH: Individual and couples coaching - <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/coaching" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/coaching</a>     EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (<a href= "mailto:leah@goodgirlstalkaboutsex.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">email</a>) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

Kay is our youngest guest yet, and she lets us in on how her generation is exploring sex differently because they’re the first with easy access to p*rn. She has dated people of multiple genders, and realized she loves all bodies. Despite her young age, Kay has already learned hard lessons about toxic relationships, trust, and consent.   Kay is an 18-year-old cisgender female. She describes herself as Black, pansexual, monogamous, and in a relationship. She grew up Catholic and describes her body as full.   Bookmark moments: 5:34 - Kay shares her first memory of sexual pleasure, when her peers in 6th grade were watching porn. It was her closest thing to a learning experience before trying things like handjobs and blowjobs. 9:55 - Kay “sort of” came out as bi in 7th grade, and then discovered she liked trans people too. She went to a Catholic school with genders separated and describes girls kissing in class. As they get older, school culture turns anti-gay. 14:40 - Sex Ed in school was brief biology, everything she already knew. Her first kiss was a dare on IG live with her best friend. It becomes her first relationship, which has its struggles. 18:00 - Kay talks about suicidal thoughts that both she and her girlfriend worked through. 25:30 - Kay lives with her mom; her mom found out about her dating girls after seeing her phone but didn’t take issue with it. Kay wishes for more open conversation around sex. 31:03 - She meets a boy. He’s not a friend first, and after the honeymoon phase it doesn’t go well, but lasts for two toxic years. He verbally abuses her about her appearance and cheats on her. 38:20 - Kay describes a painful loss of virginity experience. Our culture says this is normal, but Leah does some myth-busting on what is actually normal and how this experience can and should go down. 47:41 - Kay talks about her current relationship. She’s had her first orgasm! But sometimes he doesn’t stop when she tells him to. This includes unwanted touching. 55:27 - They talk about how Kay’s generation is the first with easy access to porn, and what messages are being gleaned. 1:01:30 - They talk about masturbation. Kay started around 4th 1:03:03 - The Lowdown: Kay answers questions about sex during periods, STI’s, birth control, number of sex partners, dating outside your race, toys, positions, initiating sex, being active vs passive, clit stimulation vs penetration, breast play, achieving and faking orgasms, solo vs partnered sex, kinds of touch, rough play, safety protocols specific to choking, one’s partner masturbating alone or watching porn alone, blowjobs, swallowing, hair vs bare, group sex, ass play, kink desires, dirty talk, laughter, confusing sexual urges, favorite body part, least favorite body part, areas to improve sex life, and correcting old beliefs.       Resources: Feminist porn – PLEASE PAY FOR YOUR PORN! pinklabel.tv brightdesire.com AbbyWinters.com CrashPadSeries.com   Patreon: All archived Good Girls Talk About Sex audio extras are now available for FREE!  They can be accessed at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.  I've done this because not everyone has the means to pay for access, and I know this additional material can be deeply important for some listeners. But creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at www.leahcarey.com/guest   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk YouTube - www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk Leah's website - www.leahcarey.com Podcast website - www.goodgirlstalk.com   WORK WITH LEAH: Individual and couples coaching - www.leahcarey.com/coaching   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

I watched porn on the school bus – Kay

Kay is our youngest guest yet, and she lets us in on how her generation is exploring sex differently because they’re the first with easy access to p*rn. She has dated people of multiple genders, and realized she loves all bodies. Despite her young age, Kay has already learned hard lessons about toxic relationships, trust, and consent.   Kay is an 18-year-old cisgender female. She describes herself as Black, pansexual, monogamous, and in a relationship. She grew up Catholic and describes her body as full.   Bookmark moments: <ul> <li>5:34 - Kay shares her first memory of sexual pleasure, when her peers in 6th grade were watching porn. It was her closest thing to a learning experience before trying things like handjobs and blowjobs.</li> <li>9:55 - Kay “sort of” came out as bi in 7th grade, and then discovered she liked trans people too. She went to a Catholic school with genders separated and describes girls kissing in class. As they get older, school culture turns anti-gay.</li> <li>14:40 - Sex Ed in school was brief biology, everything she already knew. Her first kiss was a dare on IG live with her best friend. It becomes her first relationship, which has its struggles.</li> <li>18:00 - Kay talks about suicidal thoughts that both she and her girlfriend worked through.</li> <li>25:30 - Kay lives with her mom; her mom found out about her dating girls after seeing her phone but didn’t take issue with it. Kay wishes for more open conversation around sex.</li> <li>31:03 - She meets a boy. He’s not a friend first, and after the honeymoon phase it doesn’t go well, but lasts for two toxic years. He verbally abuses her about her appearance and cheats on her.</li> <li>38:20 - Kay describes a painful loss of virginity experience. Our culture says this is normal, but Leah does some myth-busting on what is actually normal and how this experience can and should go down.</li> <li>47:41 - Kay talks about her current relationship. She’s had her first orgasm! But sometimes he doesn’t stop when she tells him to. This includes unwanted touching.</li> <li>55:27 - They talk about how Kay’s generation is the first with easy access to porn, and what messages are being gleaned.</li> <li>1:01:30 - They talk about masturbation. Kay started around 4th</li> <li>1:03:03 - The Lowdown: Kay answers questions about sex during periods, STI’s, birth control, number of sex partners, dating outside your race, toys, positions, initiating sex, being active vs passive, clit stimulation vs penetration, breast play, achieving and faking orgasms, solo vs partnered sex, kinds of touch, rough play, safety protocols specific to choking, one’s partner masturbating alone or watching porn alone, blowjobs, swallowing, hair vs bare, group sex, ass play, kink desires, dirty talk, laughter, confusing sexual urges, favorite body part, least favorite body part, areas to improve sex life, and correcting old beliefs.</li> </ul>       Resources: Feminist porn – PLEASE PAY FOR YOUR PORN! <ul> <li><a href="https://www.pinklabel.tv/" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">pinklabel.tv</a></li> <li><a href="https://www.brightdesire.com/" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">brightdesire.com</a></li> <li><a href="https://www.AbbyWinters.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">AbbyWinters.com</a></li> <li><a href="https://crashpadseries.com/" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">CrashPadSeries.com</a></li> </ul>   <a href="http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target= "_blank" rel= "noopener">Patreon</a>: All archived Good Girls Talk About Sex audio extras are now available for FREE!  They can be accessed at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.  I've done this because not everyone has the means to pay for access, and I know this additional material can be deeply important for some listeners. But creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/guest" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/guest</a>   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - <a href= "http://www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk</a> YouTube - <a href= "http://www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk</a> Leah's website - <a href= "http://www.leahcarey.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.leahcarey.com</a> Podcast website - <a href= "http://www.goodgirlstalk.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.goodgirlstalk.com</a>   WORK WITH LEAH: Individual and couples coaching - <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/coaching" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/coaching</a>   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (<a href= "mailto:leah@goodgirlstalkaboutsex.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">email</a>) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

Caz is an open book with a ton of chapters: a non-binary disability advocate kink-loving trauma survivor pain/pleasure early wayfinder who left live sex shows for the dating apps. The extraordinary roads they had to navigate led them to know themselves intimately, and helped them learn to accept, manage, and finally enjoy bodily pain. Caz is a 40-year-old, non-binary person who was assigned female at birth. They describe themselves as queer, non-monogamous and single. They’ve had a hysterectomy, so they no longer have a period but believe that hormonally they are probably peri-menopausal. They grew up in the United States and describe their body as curvy. Caz is a disability activist, and is particularly involved in education around sexuality for people with disabilities, including kink activities. You can find them on Instagram at www.instagram.com/cazkilljoy   Bookmark moments: 5:07 - Caz shares an early memory of sexual pleasure, when they caught masturbating in the living room around age 4-5. They were quickly escorted to their bedroom and the behavior was not encouraged. 8:37 - Caz has their first sexually partnered experience at age 13-14 which is mostly positive, but it triggers memories of early molestation. They seek therapy, learn how to navigate clitoral sensitivity, and treat numbness. 14:57 - Caz shares the outline of their medical issues. It started at age 21, when their legs were being held back while being fisted, causing lasting injury that spawned serious compound issues. 20:50 - The pleasure/pain balance leads to their interest in kink. Navigating the pain itself becomes a factor. They find themselves in an abusive relationship, and then a libido-mismatched rebound. 26:15 - Caz talks about learning how to orgasm while weaning off Effexor. 30:04 - Caz shares that the bent toward kink has been lifelong, and describes a childhood fantasy with masturbation taskmasters. They describe early kink explorations, pain/pleasure antecedents in self-harm, and using that as an emotional management strategy. 37:15 - They transition into BDSM as an avenue of positive personal control. Self-education starts in an alcove at Border’s Books. 48:06 - Caz talks about early same-sex interactions; some of them were non-consensual. The first consensual one was in their early 20’s. They knew something was “off” about their gender and felt most comfortable in drag. 55:40 - Caz opens up about non-binary dating, and what life and sex look like today. They have a long-term friend with benefits with whom they became pandemic partners and have recently returned to the apps. 1:04:45 - Caz talks about accessibility and kink spaces.   The Lowdown: Caz answers rapid-fire questions about period sex while, number of partners, race, toys, positions, re-naming reverse cowgirl, initiating sex, being active vs passive, clit stimulation vs penetration, physical therapy, breast/chest play, orgasming from penetration vs masturbating, preferred kind of touch, hard red lines, forced orgasm edging, porn use, making porn, live sex shows, Onlyfans, hair vs bare, group sex, giving oral sex, swallowing, receiving oral, smell and taste, ass play, kink limits, dirty talk, laughter, confusing sexual urges, favorite body parts, least favorite, getting more oral, and advice to one’s former self.   Patreon: All archived Good Girls Talk About Sex audio extras are now available for FREE!  They can be accessed at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.  I've done this because not everyone has the means to pay for access, and I know this additional material can be deeply important for some listeners. But creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at www.leahcarey.com/guest   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk YouTube - www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk Leah's website - www.leahcarey.com Podcast website - www.goodgirlstalk.com   WORK WITH LEAH: Individual and couples coaching - www.leahcarey.com/coaching   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

Pain and pleasure cum together – Caz

Caz is an open book with a ton of chapters: a non-binary disability advocate kink-loving trauma survivor pain/pleasure early wayfinder who left live sex shows for the dating apps. The extraordinary roads they had to navigate led them to know themselves intimately, and helped them learn to accept, manage, and finally enjoy bodily pain. Caz is a 40-year-old, non-binary person who was assigned female at birth. They describe themselves as queer, non-monogamous and single. They’ve had a hysterectomy, so they no longer have a period but believe that hormonally they are probably peri-menopausal. They grew up in the United States and describe their body as curvy. Caz is a disability activist, and is particularly involved in education around sexuality for people with disabilities, including kink activities. You can find them on Instagram at <a href= "http://www.instagram.com/cazkilljoy" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.instagram.com/cazkilljoy</a>   Bookmark moments: <ul> <li>5:07 - Caz shares an early memory of sexual pleasure, when they caught masturbating in the living room around age 4-5. They were quickly escorted to their bedroom and the behavior was not encouraged.</li> <li>8:37 - Caz has their first sexually partnered experience at age 13-14 which is mostly positive, but it triggers memories of early molestation. They seek therapy, learn how to navigate clitoral sensitivity, and treat numbness.</li> <li>14:57 - Caz shares the outline of their medical issues. It started at age 21, when their legs were being held back while being fisted, causing lasting injury that spawned serious compound issues.</li> <li>20:50 - The pleasure/pain balance leads to their interest in kink. Navigating the pain itself becomes a factor. They find themselves in an abusive relationship, and then a libido-mismatched rebound.</li> <li>26:15 - Caz talks about learning how to orgasm while weaning off Effexor.</li> <li>30:04 - Caz shares that the bent toward kink has been lifelong, and describes a childhood fantasy with masturbation taskmasters. They describe early kink explorations, pain/pleasure antecedents in self-harm, and using that as an emotional management strategy.</li> <li>37:15 - They transition into BDSM as an avenue of positive personal control. Self-education starts in an alcove at Border’s Books.</li> <li>48:06 - Caz talks about early same-sex interactions; some of them were non-consensual. The first consensual one was in their early 20’s. They knew something was “off” about their gender and felt most comfortable in drag.</li> <li>55:40 - Caz opens up about non-binary dating, and what life and sex look like today. They have a long-term friend with benefits with whom they became pandemic partners and have recently returned to the apps.</li> <li>1:04:45 - Caz talks about accessibility and kink spaces.</li> </ul>   The Lowdown: Caz answers rapid-fire questions about period sex while, number of partners, race, toys, positions, re-naming reverse cowgirl, initiating sex, being active vs passive, clit stimulation vs penetration, physical therapy, breast/chest play, orgasming from penetration vs masturbating, preferred kind of touch, hard red lines, forced orgasm edging, porn use, making porn, live sex shows, Onlyfans, hair vs bare, group sex, giving oral sex, swallowing, receiving oral, smell and taste, ass play, kink limits, dirty talk, laughter, confusing sexual urges, favorite body parts, least favorite, getting more oral, and advice to one’s former self.   <a href="http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target= "_blank" rel= "noopener">Patreon</a>: All archived Good Girls Talk About Sex audio extras are now available for FREE!  They can be accessed at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.  I've done this because not everyone has the means to pay for access, and I know this additional material can be deeply important for some listeners. But creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/guest" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/guest</a>   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - <a href= "http://www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk</a> YouTube - <a href= "http://www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk</a> Leah's website - <a href= "http://www.leahcarey.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.leahcarey.com</a> Podcast website - <a href= "http://www.goodgirlstalk.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.goodgirlstalk.com</a>   WORK WITH LEAH: Individual and couples coaching - <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/coaching" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/coaching</a>   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (<a href= "mailto:leah@goodgirlstalkaboutsex.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">email</a>) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

Tori grew up in a church that preached purity culture, which mostly taught her what she didn’t want—a life with far more shame than sex, compounded by firmly fixed instructions around gender. She followed her pleasure down roads less traditionally traveled and created polyamorous and non-monogamous relationships with people across the gender spectrum. It works for her, her partners, and the children for whom she wants to make a better, healthier world. Tori is 37-years-old. She describes herself as Black, pansexual and polyamorous. She has a partner who she lives with, plus she’s in a relationship with another couple. In terms of gender, she uses the she/her pronouns, but said, “Gender and I are not on speaking terms.” We talk about that in our conversation. She grew up in Evangelical purity culture. You can find Tori at: Website - www.ToriGlass.com Instagram - ToriGlass Twitter - ToriGlass Bookmark moments: 2:50 Tori shares her first memory of sexual pleasure, sitting in her homeschool desk at age 7 or 8 and rubbing herself over her jeans. In purity culture, “everything that feels good is bad.” 4:40 Tori talks about growing up in purity culture, how it never fit her, and how it spectacularly failed to prevent sexual activity for her and her peers. 12:14 She moves in with a boyfriend to the horror of her parents, with whom she is no longer in contact. 21:15 Tori talks about leaving the church as it became increasingly abusive towards its members. She wants to raise them differently than how she was raised. 25:46 Leaving the church (and her husband) allows her to explore her attraction to other people and other genders. Tori gets into more detail about her complicated relationship with gender. 32:25 Tori spells out what being a-romantic means to her and how she separates romance from intimacy from sex. 38:52 She opens up about her current live-in partner, how that configures with their other relationships, and what polyamory/ethical non-monogamy means for them. She talks about her relationship with a couple who met each other via her Twitter. 46:50 - The Lowdown - Tori answers questions about period sex, number of partners, sex with someone of a different race, sex toys, sex positions, initiating sex, clit stimulation vs penetration, breast play, achieving orgasm, faking it, solo orgasms vs partnered, kind of touch, nipple sucking, hard red lines, hair vs bare, giving and receiving oral, swallowing, taste and smell, dirty talk, laughter, and childhood beliefs about sex.   Patreon: Creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls Have a questions or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person! Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at www.leahcarey.com/guest   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk YouTube - www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk Leah's website - www.leahcarey.com Podcast website - www.goodgirlstalk.com   WORK WITH LEAH: Individual and couple coaching with Leah - www.leahcarey.com/coaching   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

Sex with women is 10/10, highly recommend - Tori

Tori grew up in a church that preached purity culture, which mostly taught her what she didn’t want—a life with far more shame than sex, compounded by firmly fixed instructions around gender. She followed her pleasure down roads less traditionally traveled and created polyamorous and non-monogamous relationships with people across the gender spectrum. It works for her, her partners, and the children for whom she wants to make a better, healthier world. Tori is 37-years-old. She describes herself as Black, pansexual and polyamorous. She has a partner who she lives with, plus she’s in a relationship with another couple. In terms of gender, she uses the she/her pronouns, but said, “Gender and I are not on speaking terms.” We talk about that in our conversation. She grew up in Evangelical purity culture. You can find Tori at: <ul> <li>Website - <a href="http://www.ToriGlass.com" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.ToriGlass.com</a></li> <li>Instagram - <a href="http://www.instagram.com/toriglass" target="_blank" rel="noopener">ToriGlass</a></li> <li>Twitter - <a href="http://www.twitter.com/toriglass" target= "_blank" rel="noopener">ToriGlass</a></li> </ul> Bookmark moments: <ul> <li>2:50 Tori shares her first memory of sexual pleasure, sitting in her homeschool desk at age 7 or 8 and rubbing herself over her jeans. In purity culture, “everything that feels good is bad.”</li> <li>4:40 Tori talks about growing up in purity culture, how it never fit her, and how it spectacularly failed to prevent sexual activity for her and her peers.</li> <li>12:14 She moves in with a boyfriend to the horror of her parents, with whom she is no longer in contact.</li> <li>21:15 Tori talks about leaving the church as it became increasingly abusive towards its members. She wants to raise them differently than how she was raised.</li> <li>25:46 Leaving the church (and her husband) allows her to explore her attraction to other people and other genders. Tori gets into more detail about her complicated relationship with gender.</li> <li>32:25 Tori spells out what being a-romantic means to her and how she separates romance from intimacy from sex.</li> <li>38:52 She opens up about her current live-in partner, how that configures with their other relationships, and what polyamory/ethical non-monogamy means for them. She talks about her relationship with a couple who met each other via her Twitter.</li> <li>46:50 - The Lowdown - Tori answers questions about period sex, number of partners, sex with someone of a different race, sex toys, sex positions, initiating sex, clit stimulation vs penetration, breast play, achieving orgasm, faking it, solo orgasms vs partnered, kind of touch, nipple sucking, hard red lines, hair vs bare, giving and receiving oral, swallowing, taste and smell, dirty talk, laughter, and childhood beliefs about sex.</li> </ul>   <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex">Patreon</a>: Creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls Have a questions or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person! Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/guest" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/guest</a>   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - <a href= "http://www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk</a> YouTube - <a href= "http://www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk</a> Leah's website - <a href= "http://www.leahcarey.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.leahcarey.com</a> Podcast website - <a href= "http://www.goodgirlstalk.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.goodgirlstalk.com</a>   WORK WITH LEAH: Individual and couple coaching with Leah - <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/coaching" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/coaching</a>   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (<a href= "mailto:leah@goodgirlstalkaboutsex.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">email</a>) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

Tammy is a listener-turned-guest who takes us into her American Jewish culture and shares how that shaped her early experiences around sex and marriage, and led her into situations that were unhealthy and downright dangerous. She dedicated herself repeatedly to making a better life for herself and her children—a life that hopefully includes serious sexual satisfaction and positive role-modeling for her children. Tammy is a 33-year-old cisgender female who describes herself as white, Jewish, and has two kids. She and her husband are married by Jewish law but not legally. She is currently monogamous, but may be open to exploring other options in the future. She describes her body as an hourglass figure with a few extra pounds.   THANKS TO OUR SPONSOR FOR THIS EPISODE: *** DIPSEA STORIES: Go to www.dipseastories.com/goodgirls to get a 30-day FREE trial!   Bookmark moments: 3:20 - Tammy shares her first memory of sexual desire, playing with the showerhead at around age 11-12 and finding her mother’s vibrator. She did not witness affection between her parents. 6:50 - She talks about how growing up in a Jewish family impacted her views on sexuality. 10:18 - Tammy decides to leave school and get her GED to get out from under her controlling mother. She goes to live with her grandparents who aren’t much better, and she turns to Yahoo groups to get access to dating and boys. You guessed it: catfish. 17:00 - She gives in and sees the guy, then goes into a panic when she realizes how in over her head she is. The incident turns into a memory blackout. 19:18 - Tammy talks about her first husband, and how her community taught (or not) young virgin wives about sex and its place within Jewish law. 27:18 - She opens up about the first time her husband displayed violent tendencies, and she chose to leave with her infant daughter. 31:35 - She tries to find her way into more mainstream culture for dating. She meets a guy she knows is wrong. A honeymoon in Vegas ends in annulment and another baby. 40:00 - Tammy talks about dating while pregnant, and then as a young mother. 47:30 - Tammy meets someone different, and she gets her first taste of bad boy attraction. It ends, and she finds herself running a divorcee dating network. She meets someone different again, this time “nerdy.” He seems like a good guy and they get engaged, but there’s a porn addiction. 55:30 - They both start 12-step meetings. Leah talks about porn use vs porn addiction. 1:02:00 - Tammy shares how her body image was negatively impacted by the porn, how her withdrawal and her husband’s waning interest stalled their sex life, and how he failed to stay off porn. 1:09:44 - She started listening to this podcast and thinking maybe there could be more, her hopes for the future, and how she wants to raise her kids to be open and have positive models. 1:17:15 – The Lowdown - Tammy answers questions about sex on her period, partners, toys, positions, clit stimulation vs penetration, achieving and/or faking orgasm, touch, building up pleasure, older men, masturbation, hair vs bare, 3-ways, blowjobs, receiving oral, smell and taste, breast play, ass play, dirty talk, laughter, confusing sexual urges, body parts, fantasies, and more.   Resources: Tracy’s Dog – Tammy’s favorite toy!  https://www.tracysdog.com/collections/best-sellers/products/2-in-1-g-spot-vibrator-with-clitoral-sucking Co-Dependents Anonymous (CoDA) - https://coda.org Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families (ACoA) - https://adultchildren.org   Patreon: Creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls Have a questions or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person! Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at www.leahcarey.com/guest   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk YouTube - www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk Leah's website - www.leahcarey.com Podcast website - www.goodgirlstalk.com   WORK WITH LEAH: Learn about coaching with Leah - www.leahcarey.com/coaching   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

Dating while pregnant - Tammy

Tammy is a listener-turned-guest who takes us into her American Jewish culture and shares how that shaped her early experiences around sex and marriage, and led her into situations that were unhealthy and downright dangerous. She dedicated herself repeatedly to making a better life for herself and her children—a life that hopefully includes serious sexual satisfaction and positive role-modeling for her children. Tammy is a 33-year-old cisgender female who describes herself as white, Jewish, and has two kids. She and her husband are married by Jewish law but not legally. She is currently monogamous, but may be open to exploring other options in the future. She describes her body as an hourglass figure with a few extra pounds.   THANKS TO OUR SPONSOR FOR THIS EPISODE: *** DIPSEA STORIES: Go to <a href= "http://www.dipseastories.com/goodgirls">www.dipseastories.com/goodgirls</a> to get a 30-day FREE trial!   Bookmark moments: <ul> <li>3:20 - Tammy shares her first memory of sexual desire, playing with the showerhead at around age 11-12 and finding her mother’s vibrator. She did not witness affection between her parents.</li> <li>6:50 - She talks about how growing up in a Jewish family impacted her views on sexuality.</li> <li>10:18 - Tammy decides to leave school and get her GED to get out from under her controlling mother. She goes to live with her grandparents who aren’t much better, and she turns to Yahoo groups to get access to dating and boys. You guessed it: catfish.</li> <li>17:00 - She gives in and sees the guy, then goes into a panic when she realizes how in over her head she is. The incident turns into a memory blackout.</li> <li>19:18 - Tammy talks about her first husband, and how her community taught (or not) young virgin wives about sex and its place within Jewish law.</li> <li>27:18 - She opens up about the first time her husband displayed violent tendencies, and she chose to leave with her infant daughter.</li> <li>31:35 - She tries to find her way into more mainstream culture for dating. She meets a guy she knows is wrong. A honeymoon in Vegas ends in annulment and another baby.</li> <li>40:00 - Tammy talks about dating while pregnant, and then as a young mother.</li> <li>47:30 - Tammy meets someone different, and she gets her first taste of bad boy attraction. It ends, and she finds herself running a divorcee dating network. She meets someone different again, this time “nerdy.” He seems like a good guy and they get engaged, but there’s a porn addiction.</li> <li>55:30 - They both start 12-step meetings. Leah talks about porn use vs porn addiction.</li> <li>1:02:00 - Tammy shares how her body image was negatively impacted by the porn, how her withdrawal and her husband’s waning interest stalled their sex life, and how he failed to stay off porn.</li> <li>1:09:44 - She started listening to this podcast and thinking maybe there could be more, her hopes for the future, and how she wants to raise her kids to be open and have positive models.</li> <li>1:17:15 – The Lowdown - Tammy answers questions about sex on her period, partners, toys, positions, clit stimulation vs penetration, achieving and/or faking orgasm, touch, building up pleasure, older men, masturbation, hair vs bare, 3-ways, blowjobs, receiving oral, smell and taste, breast play, ass play, dirty talk, laughter, confusing sexual urges, body parts, fantasies, and more.</li> </ul>   Resources: Tracy’s Dog – Tammy’s favorite toy!  <a href= "https://www.tracysdog.com/collections/best-sellers/products/2-in-1-g-spot-vibrator-with-clitoral-sucking"> https://www.tracysdog.com/collections/best-sellers/products/2-in-1-g-spot-vibrator-with-clitoral-sucking</a> Co-Dependents Anonymous (CoDA) - <a href= "https://coda.org">https://coda.org</a> Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families (ACoA) - <a href= "https://adultchildren.org">https://adultchildren.org</a>   <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex">Patreon</a>: Creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls Have a questions or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person! Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/guest" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/guest</a>   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - <a href= "http://www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk</a> YouTube - <a href= "http://www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk</a> Leah's website - <a href= "http://www.leahcarey.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.leahcarey.com</a> Podcast website - <a href= "http://www.goodgirlstalk.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.goodgirlstalk.com</a>   WORK WITH LEAH: Learn about coaching with Leah - <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/coaching" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/coaching</a>   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (<a href= "mailto:leah@goodgirlstalkaboutsex.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">email</a>) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

It’s our 100th episode!!!!!   Ar Blia is a listener-turned-guest who has been untangling early experiences of trauma, limiting cultural beliefs, and confusing desires to first explore and then advocate for her own pleasure. Even within the constricts of a conservative community, she has been able to find adventure, find herself, and find a partner who truly works for her.   Ar Blia is a 27-year-old cisgender female. She describes herself as straight, monogamous, and partnered with her boyfriend of five years. She describes her body as average (though by white American standards many of us would probably consider her petite.)   Bookmark moments: 6:12 - Ar Blia shares her first memory of sexual pleasure, at age 4-5, being aware of a pleasant tickle-ish sensation “down there” with a soapy touch. She innocently explores herself in the open until her father makes fun of her. 11:20 - Ar Blia talks about her culture’s views on sex and marriage and how that impacted her while growing up. 14:07 - She talks about her first boyfriend, with whom she planned to wait until marriage despite the copious sexual tension. 21:30 - Ar Blia shares how some aspects of her culture and how they impacted her attractions and actions. 26:08 - Ar Blia learns to make her personality smaller to accommodate her boyfriend, slowly losing herself over four years. 29:00 - She talks about how her current boyfriend helped her see what had happened. 36:08 - She shares how she met her current boyfriend, who happily pushes her up against walls. She discusses how virginity is prized in her culture and how she navigated that with the second boyfriend. She further details how her culture shaped this relationship with regard to age and expectations. 41:27 - Ar Blia opens up about her struggles with body image. 45:00 - Ar Blia discusses how she and her boyfriend found their way to pleasure reciprocity, and how they subsequently navigated a time of decreased libido. 49:16 - She ties the decreased libido back to earlier culturally-informed traumas around non-consensual sexual touch. She recalls the two episodes, and talks about present-day impacts on having her breasts touched. 1:04:30 - Ar Blia says listening to episodes of this podcast has helped her process what had happened, and get to a good place with her boyfriend now. 1:09:51 - The Lowdown: Ar Blia answers questions about having sex on her period, sex partners and race, sex toys, positions, clit stimulation vs penetration, breast play, getting to orgasm/faking it, kinds of touch, hard red lines, anal play, porn (and discovering her father’s stash with her siblings), hair vs bare, group sex, oral sex, kink, role playing, dirty talk, uncomfortable desires, body image, and changing beliefs. 1:20:17 - Leah and Ar Blia talk out being submissive in the bedroom vs in life, and the possibility of 3-way explorations.   Patreon: Creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at www.leahcarey.com/guest   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk YouTube - www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk Leah's website - www.leahcarey.com Podcast website - www.goodgirlstalk.com   WORK WITH LEAH: Learn about coaching with Leah - www.leahcarey.com/coaching   Join a PJ Party for Grown Ups - www.leahcarey.com/pjparty   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

I want be pushed against the wall – Ar Blia

It’s our 100th episode!!!!!   Ar Blia is a listener-turned-guest who has been untangling early experiences of trauma, limiting cultural beliefs, and confusing desires to first explore and then advocate for her own pleasure. Even within the constricts of a conservative community, she has been able to find adventure, find herself, and find a partner who truly works for her.   Ar Blia is a 27-year-old cisgender female. She describes herself as straight, monogamous, and partnered with her boyfriend of five years. She describes her body as average (though by white American standards many of us would probably consider her petite.)   Bookmark moments: <ul> <li>6:12 - Ar Blia shares her first memory of sexual pleasure, at age 4-5, being aware of a pleasant tickle-ish sensation “down there” with a soapy touch. She innocently explores herself in the open until her father makes fun of her.</li> <li>11:20 - Ar Blia talks about her culture’s views on sex and marriage and how that impacted her while growing up.</li> <li>14:07 - She talks about her first boyfriend, with whom she planned to wait until marriage despite the copious sexual tension.</li> <li>21:30 - Ar Blia shares how some aspects of her culture and how they impacted her attractions and actions.</li> <li>26:08 - Ar Blia learns to make her personality smaller to accommodate her boyfriend, slowly losing herself over four years.</li> <li>29:00 - She talks about how her current boyfriend helped her see what had happened.</li> <li>36:08 - She shares how she met her current boyfriend, who happily pushes her up against walls. She discusses how virginity is prized in her culture and how she navigated that with the second boyfriend. She further details how her culture shaped this relationship with regard to age and expectations.</li> <li>41:27 - Ar Blia opens up about her struggles with body image.</li> <li>45:00 - Ar Blia discusses how she and her boyfriend found their way to pleasure reciprocity, and how they subsequently navigated a time of decreased libido.</li> <li>49:16 - She ties the decreased libido back to earlier culturally-informed traumas around non-consensual sexual touch. She recalls the two episodes, and talks about present-day impacts on having her breasts touched.</li> <li>1:04:30 - Ar Blia says listening to episodes of this podcast has helped her process what had happened, and get to a good place with her boyfriend now.</li> <li>1:09:51 - The Lowdown: Ar Blia answers questions about having sex on her period, sex partners and race, sex toys, positions, clit stimulation vs penetration, breast play, getting to orgasm/faking it, kinds of touch, hard red lines, anal play, porn (and discovering her father’s stash with her siblings), hair vs bare, group sex, oral sex, kink, role playing, dirty talk, uncomfortable desires, body image, and changing beliefs.</li> <li>1:20:17 - Leah and Ar Blia talk out being submissive in the bedroom vs in life, and the possibility of 3-way explorations.</li> </ul>   <a href="http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target= "_blank" rel= "noopener">Patreon</a>: Creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at <a href= "http://www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex</a>.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/guest" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/guest</a>   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - <a href= "http://www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk</a> YouTube - <a href= "http://www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk</a> Leah's website - <a href= "http://www.leahcarey.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.leahcarey.com</a> Podcast website - <a href= "http://www.goodgirlstalk.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.goodgirlstalk.com</a>   WORK WITH LEAH: Learn about coaching with Leah - <a href="http://www.leahcarey.com/coaching" target="_blank" rel="noopener">www.leahcarey.com/coaching</a>   Join a PJ Party for Grown Ups - <a href= "http://www.leahcarey.com/pjparty" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">www.leahcarey.com/pjparty</a>   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (<a href= "mailto:leah@goodgirlstalkaboutsex.com" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">email</a>) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak

Karin talks about living with cerebral palsy and how she shows up in her own life and on Instagram. Early in her life, she struggled with hating her body, and had to work to get to place where she could see her body as worthy of experiencing pleasure. She had a brief storybook romance with a young man who also had CP. She is frank about planning, logistics, and how things like choice and vulnerability show up differently for her than for able-bodied people.   Karin is a 30-year-old cisgender female. She describes herself as white, queer, monogamous, and dating. She has cerebral palsy and a mental health disability, and has previously had an eating disorder.  She describes her body as fat.   You can find Karin on Instagram at https://www.instagram.com/khitselberger and at her website at https://www.claimingcrip.com.   Bookmark moments:   4:55 - Karin starts sharing by speaking to the hard parts: being fetishized, or “something to try,” rather than a sexual whole person. 5:40 - Karin has her first experience with sexual pleasure in her 20’s when she starts dating. They Skype about disability justice and he tells her how pretty she is. It’s beautiful and has a lasting impact, but is also brief and ends tragically. 10:34 - Karin has cerebral palsy; she didn’t explore her own body sexually while growing up. She became Christian in college; her takeaway is that Jesus would love people where they’re at, and this gives her hope and space for a relationship. 13:45 - Karin talks about where agency and choice reside for her, and about the level of trust required for intimacy.  15:20 - She circles back to the story of her first kiss. 24:15 - After losing her first boyfriend, Karin opens the door to her attraction to women. 27:00 - Karin shares that being disabled means talking about intimate logistics ahead of time, and that this can be fun. 32:02 - Karin also dealt with an eating disorder and mental health issues. She struggled early in life with hating her body, and she has worked hard to reach a place of acceptance and neutrality. A significant source of healing has been seeing her body sexually at all. 38:58 - She talks about how intimacy worked in her relationship, and that cultural conditioning to not advocate for her desires was compounded by her lack of knowing what she desires. 47:13 - Karin is currently exploring new desires around kink. She’s also learned to apply consent to co-handling of her body in everyday life. 52:00 - She shares a story of getting her boyfriend to look up fetish porn for her PhD dissertation, and the differences between American-Puritan and European perspectives. 55:20 - Karin hopes to marry and have children someday. She is talking to a potential romantic partner. 1:02:22 - Leah explains sexual surrogacy.   Resources: Karin’s website – https://www.claimingcrip.com Karin on IG - https://www.instagram.com/khitselberger To hear more about sexual surrogacy, listen to our episode with Jocelyn - https://www.goodgirlstalk.com/posts/episode/i-struggled-with-guilt-when-i-became-a-mother-jocelyn/     Patreon: Creating this show isn't free, so if you’d like to support the work I do, I am grateful for your contributions at www.patreon.com/goodgirlstalkaboutsex.   BE PART OF THE SHOW: Rate this pod: Leave a rating and review at RateThisPodcast.com/goodgirls   Have a question or comment - Leave a voicemail for Leah at 720-GOOD-SEX (720-466-3739) - this is a voicemail-only line, so I promise you won't have to talk to someone in person!   Be a guest on the show - I'd love to talk with you! Fill out the form at www.leahcarey.com/guest   FOLLOW LEAH: Instagram - www.instagram.com/goodgirlstalk YouTube - www.youtube.com/goodgirlstalk Leah's website - www.leahcarey.com Podcast website - www.goodgirlstalk.com   WORK WITH LEAH: Learn about coaching with Leah - www.leahcarey.com/coaching   Join a PJ Party for Grown Ups - www.leahcarey.com/pjparty   EPISODE CREDITS: Host / Producer – Leah Carey (email) Audio Editor – Gretchen Kilby Administrative Support - Lara O'Connor, Maria Franco Transcript creation – Jan Acielo Music – Nazar Rybak  

Sex and Cerebral Palsy - Karin

Deep conversations with women about their personal experience of sex and female sexuality. Sex and Intimacy Coach Leah Carey hosts the type of conversations you usually only have with your best girlfriend late at night over a bottle of wine. Leah interviews people (including people brought up as little girls plus transgender women) of all sizes, shapes, ages, orientations, relationship structures, kink levels, races, religions, cultural backgrounds, and more. The conversations on Good Girls Talk About Sex are warm, welcoming, and non-judgmental. You are likely to hear stories that reflect your own experiences and let you know that you're not alone. You're also likely to hear stories that broaden your ideas about what is "normal" and introduce you to exciting new experiences! You will probably LOVE this show if: * You crave late-night conversations with friends about sex * You've ever wondered if your sexual needs, desires, or fantasies are "normal" * You're curious about sex but don't have anyone in your life to talk about it with You will probably NOT LIKE this show if: * You are uncomfortable hearing people talk about sex and their bodies in frank terms * You are uncomfortable with swearing and/or raw displays of emotion * You believe sex should only happen between a man and a woman within the confines of marriage Most guests appear anonymously so they're free to tell the good, the bad, and the titillating! These conversations are explicit but never salacious.

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